I'm very good at oral sex. Part Deux
2008-02-03 @ 3:04 a.m.
We partied with Liz and Elyza this weekend, which was hella chill. Look, Ma! Friends! Actually Liz just left. First non-Goblin besides Tony in the apartment. ACHIEVEMENT!
Liz has got this baby crush (now full blown?) on Brittany but I can't tell if Brittany is feeling it. I think she might be warming up to the idea, but who knows.
I'm trying to be more open with Lewis about... sexual matters...
He says he's really open about that stuff which is good, and could definitely make for some good chemistry, if you get my drift. When we almost had sex it really really scared me because I actually really like this boy (go figure... that's what scares me?!) but now that we're so far apart I'm craving it. I think without being about to see him and talking to him so much that we are becoming so close emotionally and the sex part needs to catch up, which is most definitely a nice change for me. However, the second we get to be alone I can only imagine the fun we'll have. Fuck showing him Seattle... I'll show him my apartment and that's about it. I'm kidding and sound like some sort of total skeeze but I feel so close to him because I trust him so much with my feelings that when it happens, I think it will be amazing.
Back to the whole being open thing, after telling him it really turns me on when he bites my nipples (which I did not say in so many words because I never want to live with something like that actually coming out of my mouth) he let on a nice surprise; a surprise which I'm pretty sure makes me probably the luckiest girl alive...
He really enjoys giving oral sex, but does not enjoy receiving oral sex!
I think I have reached sexual heaven. He did say though that the few times he has received oral (only a handful of times out of the 6 girls he's slept with... including half having sex with me) he didn't like it and once was apparently painful? I told him it's not supposed to be like that and we'd try it out. I believe I was once told, after giving head, "Why would anyone have sex with you when you're that amazing at giving head?" Maybe that gave me a big head (no pun intended...? dunno). I think that was supposed to be a compliment at the time...? Anyway, not that I enjoy going down on guys, but for Lewis, I can sacrifice. And if he still doesn't like it... well... no loss for me. Actually, that would be a plus for me.
I can't believe I talked to him about this but since we're so far away I think it will help. I've said this, but when it finally all happens, I think it will be amazing, to say the least.
I like him so much, it's ridiculous.